TO bE IN LOVE WITH DEPRESSION

About a week ago I was down in the dumps. Didn't want to eat, just sleep, because I was so sick. Everything was starting to get irritated me to points of isolating myself from my family and finding everything worthless. I lost 5 pounds and now weigh 88. Nick, my boyfriend, tried his hardest to cheer me up and see me when he could and for some reason or another it just wasn't enough for me. Everyday I just got worse, but my feelings for Nick somehow intensified. I had no idea I could love him this much more. He stayed in our loft one night and I rubbed his head until he fell asleep and as I watched him I realised how beautiful he is. His body was like a map of heaven and as I sat, embracing my love I began to cry. My tears were unexpected to myself and I haven't been able to make sense of them, but I know I am happy now. Spending time with him is like medicine for me in every way for my soul and I dont think I could ever find someone as perfect as him!

THE FIRST EASTER FOR MY SOUL

I attended a party with my boyfriend Nick for an easter get together/birthday party and had a great time. Nick and I danced together, drank beer and played games. We had a scavenger hunt with teams and our teams call to each other was screaming "SUCKYFUCKY!" to each other, it was drunken humor. There was a couple who made Nick and I want a child so badly with each other. Later after dancing for a while I chatted with a russian woman about music and dancing and connection, it was as if my senses had just been born and my souls free spirit had just been born. I can't wait to talk to her again. She made me feel so open and beautiful. Her smell was familiar to me, like a past home I've had. When I told her this she told me she loved me with glowing eyes and hugs me so tight. My dancing with Nick became so feather like after speaking to her. She watched us dance and she admired our love for each other, and I was admiring that!